Category: Psychedelics

Sincere Apologies And Then Some

I’ve been busier with work recently than previously.  I’m working almost 50 hours a week now, which would be about 49 hours more than I used to work per week.  As a consequence, my free time has shrunken to almost zero.  I have a new dog, as well, who has lots of energy and demands lots of attention.  I certainly plan to continue the path set forth earlier this year when I started this blog, however right now is just not going to work.  Sorry for that.

In the meantime, however, I have an interesting rare treat for members of the drug community who may have stumbled onto this blog.  What follows is a “trip report” involving synthesized 4-HO-DMT, otherwise known as Psilocin (the primary active chemical in the mushroom species Psilocybe Cubensis, or common psychoactive mushrooms).  This took place, I think, in August of 2011.  It’s not a very good story, and there’s a heavy amount of drug lingo involved in the text, and for that I’m sorry.  Here is a basic glossary of terms, followed by the trip report:

OEV – Open Eye Visuals

CEV – Closed Eye Visuals

+1/+2/+3/+4 – Shulgin system of describing a person’s involvement with the chemical, +1 means a slight effect is felt and +4 means the chemical has pretty much taken over and manifested itself in its entirety, visuals are extremely powerful and uncontrollable

4-ACO-DMT  –  Another chemical in the Tryptamine family of psychedelics.  This compound is said (on Erowid) to be very similar to 4-HO-DMT, not just chemically, but in action (however I found it to be quite different from actual Psilocin)


By some miracle of god I came into ownership of some synthesized 4-HO-DMT or Psilocin, about ~100mg.  Here is my first report with this rare substance:

pill A – 15-17mg 4-ho-dmt

pill B – 10-12mg 4-ho-dmt

10:30am – pill A ingested

11:00am – yawning more, feeling my body relax more, some stomach flutters, but nothing serious.

11:10am – first signs of visual distortions, slight bending, only noticeable because I’m looking for it.  I’m feeling a bit chilled now, I should wear a hoodie.

11:25am – the visuals, relaxation, and stomach flutters are all increasing.  Getting harder and harder to get up and write on the keyboard.  Smoking some high quality marijuana now.

11:37am – I am full-on tripping now, and it feels closer to mushrooms (obviously) than say 4-aco-dmt.  Some more marijuana.

11:50am – pill B ingested

12:10pm – This is the last point where I’m aware of what time it is and capable of communication, at least effective communication.  I made a note in my voice recorder about the differences I was noticing between 4-aco-dmt (which is described on Erowid as possibly being metabolically converted in Psilocin, or 4-ho-dmt) and 4-ho-dmt.  Here is the transcript of the 30 second voice recording:

“The color alteration is definitely different from 4-aco-dmt, it’s more like an earthy, less, like, red, bright red.  4-aco is just like a, just bright red, this feels more like earthy… I guess, I don’t know, like, the wood almost looks black right now, I guess it could be the lighting, but… I don’t know.  It’s definitely distinct from 4-aco-dmt.  It is not the same thing, by any stretch of the imagination.”

Now, obviously, I know they are not the same thing, I was just referring to the information on Erowid’s 4-aco-dmt vault which says:

“4-Acetoxy-DMT is an uncommon synthetic psychedelic. Its effects and duration are similar to those of psilocybin/psilocin. It is probably metabolically converted into psilocin in the body, but there are also reasons to believe that 4-acetoxy-DMT might itself be active in the brain, producing effects that are distinct from psilocin.”

I’ve used 4-aco-dmt a dozen or more times in the last year or so, and even if it’s metabolically converted into psilocin in the body it is very different from taking 4-ho-dmt itself.  4-aco-dmt provides more rainbow type visuals with a distinct red-ish hue/glow to it while 4-ho-dmt is more similar to mushrooms than 4-aco-dmt.  4-ho-dmt did not give me the red-ish glow of 4-aco-dmt, but there was a sort of color deepening effect.  Browns seemed black, and whites seemed closer to tan.  Everything seemed to have an Earth-like glow to it.

Shortly after 12:10pm, probably around 12:30 or 12:45, the 2nd pill was kicking in and the visuals became intensely powerful.  After careful consideration I believe this experience with 4-ho-dmt to be the 2nd most powerfully visual experience I’ve ever had, behind Salvia Extract smoked from a bong, with a full out-of-body experience (basically I broke through for 5-10 minutes).

The visuals started getting more and more intense as the 2nd pill made its way to my brain, I started having a harder and harder time distinguishing between open and closed eyes.  The imagery was also much darker than other drugs I’ve taken, with wild animals and splatters of blood.  I have no fantasy involving this… but at one point in the CEVs it felt and appeared as if I was being urinated on by some sort of large creature (Jaguar, Panther, something like that) which I could only interpret as a visual representation of the ego-loss I was experiencing as a result of the drug.  Surely being peed on is pretty degrading, and I’m not one to enjoy being subjected to that kind of thing voluntarily, but of course the effects of the drug prevented me from caring or reacting, at all, to these bizarre visions.

At one point I also distinctly remember seeing a blood spray across the visuals I was seeing, in a Ralph Steadman sort of fashion, whom I am an admitted fan of.  The visuals during the peak were savage and animalistic, with no fractals or intricate designs, but rather creatures and people and blood and sex and death and other such things.  Also during the peak I felt distinctly tiny.  It felt as if my body was shrinking, quite literally, and the objects and even the room itself around me became much larger. I believe this to be another visual representation of ego-loss.  Also, at some point, I became paranoid that my brain was dropping pieces of itself down my sinus cavity and into my throat, causing me to consume my own brain.  I realized that this was a completely ridiculous notion and was capable of not freaking out, but this belief sincerely inhabited me for a good 2 minutes or so, when I realized I just had some snot in the back of my throat, drank some water, and was fine.

One thing that I was considering while still tripping after the peak, however, was the digestion of this drug versus mushrooms.  Taking 4-ho-dmt is as easy as swallowing a gelcap, which removes some of the ritualistic aspect of the preparation and consumption of the drug.  When taking mushrooms people usually add it to food, prepare a tea, or consume several grams of dried mushroom material (usually, pretty disgusting, and not at all easy, at least for me) and try to keep it down.  This extra time spent preparing the mushrooms forces the mind to consider the events soon to follow, while weighing and swallowing a pill only takes about 30 seconds.  Similarly, digesting dried mushrooms, or even mushroom tea, is not as direct as taking pure 4-ho-dmt, since the stomach has all this non-active material to work through as well.  As a result the ride on 4-ho-dmt is much more intense with a STEEP peak.  Mushrooms are much more like a long 4-6 hour plateau, while pure 4-ho-dmt, even in a gelcap, feels like a roller coaster ride from hour 1 to hour 3, and then tapering off pretty quickly by hour 5 or 6, and back to baseline by hour 7 or 8, at least at the doses I used.

Clearly staggering my doses did not effect the intensity of the trip, but many Psilocin studies were done at .45mg/kg and .9mg/kg which would be about 30 and 60mg respectively.  I took ~27mg spread out over 80 minutes and still had, what I would consider, at least a +3.5 or +4 experience.

I’ve never smoked DMT before, so I can’t claim to know what it’s like, but I have to imagine that the ~30 minute peak I experienced on 4-ho-dmt to be similar in intensity to the visuals of DMT at just below break-through dosage.  I certainly intend on trying this substance again, and I have a couple more doses that I intend to play with later this year, but not anytime soon, I’ll probably wait a couple of weeks before dosing again, but not too long, because the material is degrading pretty quickly, and I’d like to ingest it at as high a potency as possible.  Next time I might consider dosing something like 22mg in one dose instead of 2 separate dosages.  Also, I might use some of this batch to mix with 4-aco-dmt.  I’m curious what a combination of the two might be like.  I’m thinking of trying 10-12mg 4-ho-dmt and 14-16mg 4-aco-dmt, all in one capsule.

In conclusion, Psilocin is a fantastic compound, but it is by no means a party drug.  The potency and savage nature of it make it the tripping man’s drug, with some of the most powerful visuals I’ve ever experienced.


N.O. to H.R.1254

Bill Summary & Status – 112th Congress (2011 – 2012) – H.R.1254

The 112th Congress’ H.R.1254 is blind ignorance put into action.  This bill will criminalize almost 30 specific compounds, while adding obscure and nonspecific wordage like “Unless specifically exempted or unless listed in another schedule, any material, compound, mixture, or preparation which contains any quantity of cannabimimetic agents, or which contains their salts, isomers, and salts of isomers whenever the existence of such salts, isomers, and salts of isomers is possible within the specific chemical designation” and “the term `cannabimimetic agents’– `(A) means any substance that is a cannabinoid receptor type 1 (CB1 receptor) agonist as demonstrated by binding studies and functional assays within the following structural classes” and then goes on to list a whole bunch of chemistry that not even I can easily comprehend, as well as a list of almost 30 specific research chemicals to make illegal.

In addition to everything mentioned above, this bill also seeks to ratify the current emergency scheduling process by doubling the amount of time the government can criminalize a compound without serious medical and scientific investigation.  Luckily, I guess, for us, there is a perfect example in the compound 2C-E, which I wrote about last week.  2C-E was responsible for 10 hospitalizations and one death in a rural town in the Midwest.  If this bill were to pass, they could emergency schedule 2C-E and make it illegal to possess and distribute for any reason, and they could do it for two years, without any sort of motive other than “it kills.”

Which is a ridiculous motive.  I know I sound like a broken record at this point, but criminalizing everything that was lethal would result in a pretty boring world.  Cars, gasoline, cigarettes, alcohol, rock climbing, airline travel, and pork products would all be banned.

The kind of language being used in these new bills is shocking to say the least.  I don’t think it’s sane, let alone acceptable, to have politicians discussing chemistry.  None of these people are actually qualified to be deciding what chemicals are acceptable and which ones aren’t.  I haven’t even begun to discuss the fact that most of the drugs on this list are results of criminalization of more popular chemicals from the past.

Mephedrone, MDPV, methylone, MDAI, MDPPP.  All of these chemicals were created in an effort to mimic the effects of two much more familiar chemicals, MDMA and Methamphetamine, or to a lesser extent, amphetamine.  The entire JWH series of chemicals, as well as the CP series and AM series, are synthetic THC mimics.  That is to say, they were created to mimic the properties of a more popular, but illegal drug, marijuana.  Had marijuana never been criminalized in the first place, I doubt the creation of these chemicals would have been necessary, and if they had been created, they would not have been experimented with recklessly and recreationally by teenagers and young adults.  No, they would have been studied by scientists and the benefits, if any, would have been determined and the chemical would either be used or not.  The act of criminalizing naturally occurring plants and chemicals which have proven over centuries of human use to be safe, has led to the creation of literally hundreds of synthetic chemicals that merely attempt to replicate the grandeur of their parent compounds., while being much more dangerous.  And it’s a shock to society, as well.  To have this many drugs invented and ingested in a matter of a quarter century.

Humans were perfectly content smoking their pot, eating their mushrooms and cacti, and drinking their magical teas.  Western culture and fear of the unknown was what forced the creation of more psychedelics each year than total drugs existed for most of human history, and now the very same culture, born out of propaganda and terror, seeks to wage a battle that cannot be won, against an enemy that is reinvented much faster than our own political and judicial systems.  You might think this new list of drugs to ban is quite comprehensive, when in fact it is but a small percent of legal drugs available to people looking with the right kind of eyes, or rather, the right kind of fingers.

An interesting point to mention, all research chemicals, which are the ones that are illegal for human consumption, are created by actual laboratories, and actual scientists.  These are people who went to college, did well, and applied their degree successfully to a product that is 99+% pure.  And that’s a fact.  Many research chemical companies synthesize 99% pure product, or better.  When was the last time you heard of 99% pure cocaine?  Or 99% pure meth?  Criminalizing these chemicals will only breed a community of pseudo-chemists who, using illegal labs to create impure products, will sell the product at a much higher price, all the while reducing the safety of the consumer, and further clogging our judicial and prison systems with victimless offenders.

Education and awareness are the keys to responsible drug use, and preventing overdose.  Harm reduction, that’s what it’s all about, and I would hardly consider imprisonment a form of harm reduction.  Imprisoning people for being curious or having a different idea of what a fun Saturday night might be is a stupid mentality to have, and it’s really sad to see this culture of persecution being encouraged by the people who were elected democratically to their position.

Passing this bill would only increase the money we spend on victimless crimes and “criminals” while ruining people’s lives instead of helping them.  I understand people get upset when a person is hospitalized or killed by a chemical, but educating people and being open minded will go a lot farther than putting people in prison.

To see the status of this bill, please use the following link:

The following is a response to:

It’s amazing how emphasizing one aspect of a study over another can skew a person’s view on a subject.  This… let’s call it a Press Release… No, how about a Study Summary?  Teen ER Visits Due to Ecstasy Are on the Rise.  That’s an interesting title, and after reading this Study Summary I have a second opinion regarding the title, excuse the pun.  This block of words and numbers could have easily been titled “Everything in Ecstasy Except MDMA is Bad For You.”  Or, another possibility is “Teen  Population on the Rise.”  Or how about, “ER Visits as a Whole Are on the Rise.”  Or another personal favorite “MDMA: Seriously Way Less Dangerous Than Everything Else.”

The United States of America has the fastest population growth rate of all industrialized countries, according to a World Population Data Sheet in July of 2003 from the Population Reference Bureau.  And the National Center for Health Statistics says there are 1.6 million more births each year in the US than deaths.  4 Million new babies per year.  This Study Summary claims an increase of 40% over three years, when there must be at least two or three million new teenagers every year.  People who have ingested Ecstasy, a word I abhor by the way, will typically ingest it again in the future.  There’s a reason there’s no such thing as Ecstasy Anonymous.  MDMA is not easily accessible to everyone; Marijuana and Cocaine are probably much more available and desirable among youths.  Never mind the availability and wealth of alcohol to teenagers.

So, as you can imagine, there aren’t many people who would claim to have used MDMA in 2005 who would not claim the same thing just three years later.  Add to that the, literally, millions of new teenagers discovering something far worse than any drug or drink available locally, the internet.  Yes, the internet can, and probably will, change your teenager in one way or another.  There are a lot of things you can do with the knowledge at your fingertips.  One thing teenagers can use the internet for is learning about the wonders of human inebriation.  However the internet holds more psychedelic majesty than any normal adult would ever care to learn about.

With that being said, MDMA has a certain appeal, especially to young people.  First of all it’s a drug from “this generation” you could say.  Mushrooms have always existed, LSD was the 60s, cocaine in the 80s, and Ecstasy in the 90s.  MDMA is also associated with electronic music, which is still popular with teenagers to this day.  Another point to mention is the lack of any deaths from MDMA, or even Ecstasy, the dirty whore of a sibling.  I’d be interested in seeing the data comparing alcohol overdose to every other substance.  Who can say no to a drug that guarantees a happy experience with a low risk of overdose, when the legal competition is a highly dangerous liquid capable of inducing suicide, homicide, and so much more?

Overdose.  I’ve been using this word a lot.  When I say the term “Ecstasy Overdose” most people are just thinking of the drug, MDMA, street name Ecstasy, causing overdoses.  However, this is not entirely true.  In fact, it’s mostly false.  Ecstasy pills are notoriously impure creations of human greed, containing everything from Methamphetamine to Mephedrone to BZP, Caffeine, or TFMPP.  Fortunately I don’t know this first hand, but most human beings would not voluntarily ingest many of those chemicals, and some Ecstasy pills contain a combination of those chemicals, and even worse, sometimes they contain no MDMA what-so-ever.

So how can you even properly have statistics regarding “Ecstasy” the pill, instead of MDMA the chemical?  It doesn’t seem logical.  And even in the chimera trucker doppelganger candy form we call Ecstasy, it’s only ranked 7th for “most commonly involved illicit drug involved in emergency department visits, behind cocaine, which accounted for 48.5% of the ER visits, marijuana (37.7%), heroin (20.2%), methamphetamine (6.7%), PCP or phencylidine (3.8%), and amphetamines (3.2%)”

MDMA was once a prescription drug that was praised by the psychiatric community for its effects.  As I remember it, it was used to treat terminally ill patients and help them cope with their mortality while allowing them to connect on a more personal level with loved ones, while also treating more common problems like depression.  MDMA is truly a magical chemical, which, when used in its pure form, is very safe and enjoyable for an extremely high percentage of users.  I still make an effort to experience the benefits of Shulgin’s creation at least a couple times per year.

I’d like to end this with another reference from this Study Summary, something you might not have noticed that frightened and confused me on a primal level.  Let’s see that quote one more time…

“Ecstasy was the seventh most commonly involved illicit drug involved in emergency department visits, behind cocaine, which accounted for 48.5% of the ER visits, marijuana (37.7%), heroin (20.2%), methamphetamine (6.7%), PCP or phencylidine (3.8%), and amphetamines (3.2%).”

According to this study, 37.7% of ALL illicit drug-related ER visits are for marijuana.  Seriously?  Seriously… Words cannot describe the emotions rising up within me as I read this series of numbers and letters.  The part of my brain involved with reading is telling myself “Yes, that is what they said.”  Meanwhile, the part of my brain that is aware of the fact that no one has ever died from marijuana ever in the history of written language, no, in the history of spoken word and storytelling, is flaring up something fierce.  A bolt of lightning, not unlike the ones used in pain relief advertisements, is connecting these parts of my brain striking my mind repeatedly over and over, incapable of processing these two facts.  Because, after all, they are both facts.  These people are actually going to the hospital, it’s not a lie.  I would be thrilled to see the marijuana overdose episode of House.

The following is a response to:

Death is never easy to accept.  Revenge is a predictable byproduct of death, especially unnatural death of someone in their “prime.”  But how do you exact revenge on something inanimate?  Or rather, alleviate the desires for revenge?  How can you achieve peace of mind?  Well, there are two ways to go about such a task.  The first, involves creating awareness of this danger which has been put in the spotlight.  Yes, tell everyone about said danger in the hopes that no one else need be sacrificed.  Pretty simple concept.  The other thing someone could do is condemn the dangerous thing.  Banish it, destroy it, criminalize it, and install a sense of fear into everyone with the ability to listen.

Articles like this one seem more and more common, if you can call them articles.  A serious lack of actual investigation and reporting went into the making of these blocks of text on the internet.  First of all, as you might notice, there is a picture of some powder with the caption “2C-1, the drug being blamed for the overdoses.”  Where to start?  First of all, there is no such thing as 2C-1.  That is not a chemical that exists either theoretically or physically.  I assume they meant 2C-I, which I guess kind of looks like 2C-1, however this article is about 2C-E, so you’ll have to pardon my confusion when it says “the drug being blamed for overdoses.”  Enough of that, let’s keep going down this path, I like where this is heading.

The author immediately goes into chemical background.  I’m sure the same level of detail-oriented craftsmanship can be expected in the body of the text and not just the captions.  “2C-E, is the chemical cousin of a relatively new, synthetic hallucinogen called 2C-I.”  Alright, I know this is splitting hairs, and the word “relatively” is very clearly in the sentence, but 2C-E and 2C-I both had their syntheses published in the 1991 book PiHKAL by Alexander and Ann Shulgin, twenty years ago.  I wouldn’t say to someone “I’m relatively new to videogames” and that’s because I’ve been playing them for twenty years.  Forget it, let’s move on.

“Since it first surfaced in the early 2000s, 2C-I built a reputation as a” – hold it right there.  How can you, as a writer, input into your keyboard a sentence using the words “relatively new” and then immediately follow that sentence with a sentence about it’s already existing reputation from last decade.  I mean come on.

“According Anoka County Sheriff commander Paul Sommer, 2C-E is actually legal.”  Not true.  2C-E is illegal for human consumption.  It is only legal as a “research chemical” which means when you ingest 2C-E it’s the same as ingesting paint thinner.  There are warnings all over the packaging telling you to NOT eat the contents, and for good reason.  One thing paint thinner has in common with 2C-E, is they are both lethal in high enough doses.  But then again, what isn’t?  It’s possible to overdose on nicotine patches, acetaminophen, alcohol, and glue, yet all of them are readily available at a store near you.  Hell, a poor diet will lead to cardiac problems and diabetes, moderation is the key.  In the drug community it’s called “Harm Reduction” and it’s a very serious thing for the hardcore drug geeks of the world.  Harm reduction produces fewer headlines.  Fewer headlines mean less drug laws.  Less drug laws means the ability to buy things like 2C-I and 2C-E and the hundreds of other “legal” chemicals available to, not just Americans, but almost every developed nation.

“It’s not on any controlled substance tables in the United States,” he says. “I guess you wouldn’t even call it a drug. It’s kind of marketed as a research chemical or something like that.”

That’s a hell of a quote.  I’m not sure how I feel about the Sheriff Commander ending his sentence with “or something like that.”  I guess ambivalence and confusion are far better reactions than fear and loathing, but it’s a short road from one to the next, and only a matter of time before one of two dramatic conclusions occurs.

Option A – Decriminalize all drugs and legalize the non-addictive and non-lethal varieties.  The government can tax and over-see the manufacture and distribution of these plants and chemicals, maintaining standards while generating capital.  The prison system becomes less crowded, less money is spent on inmates, and more money is put into public healthcare to assist drug addicts and alcoholics.

Option B – Create a blanket law that outright criminalizes any “substance with recreational and/or psychedelic effects” without needing the emergency scheduling process.

Right now in America for a drug to become illegal, or Scheduled, it must first go through emergency scheduling which requests medical information on the dangers, or possible benefits, of the chemical in question.  After a short period of time, I believe it’s 30 days but I can’t remember, if all goes according to plan, the chemical is placed in the list of Scheduled chemicals.  Because of this, combined with the hard reality that new psychedelics are invented, synthesized, and ingested every year, it’s incredibly difficult for the government to quickly determine which, if any, of the new chemicals are dangerous enough, or popular enough, to require Schedule placement.

So those are you’re options.  Embrace the inevitable, accept the fact that humans have been altering their minds and perceptions for millenia, and plunge in head first, or clamp down even harder and burn more cash fighting the most popular recreational activity in the world, substance abuse.